And Peter went out, and wept bitterly
Jesus told Peter he would deny Him three times after Peter vehemently affirmed that he was willing to
“ I am ready to go with thee, both into prison, and to death.”
One can read about it in the 22nd chapter of Luke.
Peter who once confessed Jesus as Messiah, even being told flesh and blood has not revealed this unto you, but my Father in heaven — you are blessed Peter.
That same Peter.
Note. After Peter denies the Lord three times,
And the Lord turned, and looked upon Peter. And Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how he had said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice.
And Peter went out, and wept bitterly.
Let’s put Peter aside. Let’s look at stephen. You of course should look at yourself. The Lord looks upon stephen when stephen denies the Lord in whatever various ways he has fallen short.
Young mr. stephen walking down a highway coastal road in Texas, and a motorcycle drives by and flings some paper at mr. stephen. A gospel tract. Another seed. Another, and the Lord turned, and looked upon mr. stephen. Do you recall Him looking upon YOU?
I’m not getting it, not assimilating it enough to communicate. The sense that Peter experienced that we also experience. That place lacking sometimes in our place of worship, where we actually cry and weep. That place of worship can be in your back yard, driving down the highway, even in a building with a “church” name out front. Does HE look upon us? Do we have any tears left? Do we have any tears when And the men that held Jesus mocked him, and smote him.
Does mr. stephen even understand that his sins are what mock Yeshua Messiah. His own sins are what smote Jesus. It wasn’t somebody else way back when 2000 years ago doing the mocking, the smiting… it was my sins simply represented by someone back then. Do you feel the cat of nine tails slice the back … mr. stephen’s sins, your sins inside the whip…
And how does one comprehend the One of whom it is written, He despised the shame of the cross, hanging naked, hanging naked when He Cried out My God My God Why hast thou forsaken me…
He despises that shame for mr. stephen…. For You….
And He Looks at Peter as Peter denies Him, and Peter goes out and weeps bitterly. And then, and only then [note that], the other part of the prophecy comes back: But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren. It wasn’t Mama’s prayers. And all the mama’s prayers are appreciated. Jesus prays for THEE. That THY Faith fail not. And the Holy Spirit whispers words into your very being inside your mother’s womb. In my case, the word Moriah. Where did that WORD come from? WHY was that whispered inside my being inside my mother’s womb? It was something beyond my comprehension.
Back to the regular narrative. I remember being inside the 4 walls of a church when my firstborn was about six-months-old in the womb. And the Word was preached for ALL have sinned, and ALL fall short of the Glory of GOD. And the babe in the womb kicked inside her Mama. And a WORD was whispered inside her very being.
How do we comprehend the Father who is the Potter? We are all on that journey HOME. That home Abraham looked for: By faith he sojourned in the land of promise, as in a strange country, dwelling in tabernacles with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with him of the same promise: For he looked for a city which hath foundations, whose builder and maker is God.
The resurrection of the dead. Part of my Moriah.
WHAT has HE whispered inside your very being? What does it take for the tears to come? When it is written of us, even our very backslidings will correct us. Even our backslidings touched with his GRACE. And I have prayed Peter that your Faith fail not. Yes Peter, even your very backslidings are anointed to bring you HOME.
For I will cleanse their blood that I have not cleansed: for the Lord dwelleth in Zion.